I’m not even sure how to start this post but to come right
out and say it – I left my husband. The reasons why are not something I want to
hash out on the Internet. I will say it was a very big, scary much needed step
for me. The important thing for this blog is to know that Grace is safe and I
am able to hold on to her. I am bouncing from place to place right now and hope
to have a more permanent residence starting in November. In the meantime I am
living out of the truck with a weeks’ worth of clothes. I had planned to return
to the rental house on October 1st with Grace but my husband will be
staying there instead with our dog Belle. It breaks my heart that I had to walk
away from Belle, but I had to take care of myself first and foremost. Hopefully
we can work out some sort of a partial custody agreement when the divorce is
final.
Grace and I are at a horse show this weekend, the last one
of the season. I debated going once I left but my entry was already sent in, I’d
put in for the time off of work and I really could use some time away. After this
show I’m not sure what the future holds for Grace and I. I will do everything I
can to hold on to her just like I have for the last 13 years. I know the
decision I made is the right one and that we will both be better off for it in
the end. I just wish I didn’t feel so lost right now.
I'm sorry to hear that. :( I hope things work out for you.
ReplyDeleteBirth or rebirth is a painful process and changing your life can be terrifying and electrifying and incredibly difficult. I hope you are safe with the means to support yourself. Thankful that Grace is taken care of. Sending lots of positive energy your way.
ReplyDeleteSometimes the only way out is through. You're obviously an intelligent, hardworking, capable, thoughtful person. Resourcefulness is simply combining those qualities into a new way forward. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteI went through the same thing over 15 years ago. I remember how ridiculous I felt uprooting my entire life and starting over. It was tough at the time, but everything is so much better now!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and wishing you a brighter future *hugs*
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