I’m not even sure how to start this post but to come right out and say it – I left my husband. The reasons why are not something I want to hash out on the Internet. I will say it was a very big, scary much needed step for me. The important thing for this blog is to know that Grace is safe and I am able to hold on to her. I am bouncing from place to place right now and hope to have a more permanent residence starting in November. In the meantime I am living out of the truck with a weeks’ worth of clothes. I had planned to return to the rental house on October 1st with Grace but my husband will be staying there instead with our dog Belle. It breaks my heart that I had to walk away from Belle, but I had to take care of myself first and foremost. Hopefully we can work out some sort of a partial custody agreement when the divorce is final.
Grace and I are at a horse show this weekend, the last one of the season. I debated going once I left but my entry was already sent in, I’d put in for the time off of work and I really could use some time away. After this show I’m not sure what the future holds for Grace and I. I will do everything I can to hold on to her just like I have for the last 13 years. I know the decision I made is the right one and that we will both be better off for it in the end. I just wish I didn’t feel so lost right now.